A few gentle resources you might explore, only if and when they feel supportive:

• On Insight Timer, there are several 10-day courses for anxiety that many people find grounding during periods of acute fear. You might take it slowly, even repeating days as needed. Here's a second option.

• Thich Nhat Hanh's book, No Death, No Fear is full of teachings many have found helpful when facing the death of a loved one. 

• If you feel able, I strongly encourage finding live, human support. Practicing with others can be profoundly regulating. You could look for a local grief group or mindfulness group or sangha. If you’re drawn to the Plum Village tradition, you can find groups through the sangha directory on the Mindfulness Bell website. If none are nearby, other Buddhist traditions or secular mindfulness groups can also be a good fit.

• My colleague Dr. Jean Metzger offers an online grief support group and you can reach out to her for more information at: Jean.Metzker@vnshealth.org

• A Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) course can be especially helpful for anxiety and health-related fears, as it works gently with the body and nervous system over time. These are offered both in person and online.

• If grief ever tips into feeling unbearable or unsafe, reaching out to a grief-informed therapist or counselor is an act of care, not weakness.